Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Contemplating Attachments

Today I will make vegan cupcakes with tofutti "cream cheese" frosting.

The last time I attempted vegan cupcakes I made them chocolate with green mint frosting.
Everyone called them "toothpaste cupcakes".

I'm determined to redeem myself today! However, in the spirit of this post, I will try not to become attached to a particular outcome. These will be my "go-with-the-flow" cupcakes.

Getting my hair chopped was a good reminder of how easy it is to become attached to stuff, (in this case a mess of dead cells). The day before my scheduled cut I stood outside Little Star, waiting for Amanda to get us a table and found myself drifting off into a hair stroking trance. I caught my reflection in the window and took hold of my longer locks. I started running my fingers down from root to tip and repeated this motion unconsciously until,

"SHAKTI! What are you doing? I got us a table!"

"Dude, I'm not psychic, I was waiting for you to tell me! Lemme lock up my bike."

Really I had just zoned out but the point of this stupid story is that I realized I don't want to be tied down by my attachments. I know I'll always have certain attachments. I'm not a saint and don't plan on becoming one but I also don't want to get to a point in my life where my clinging to material things is running the show! The hair thing got me thinking...

The new chop has brought with it a new sense of freedom! I'm re-inspired to continue minimizing my stuff and since I'm going to be moving in August, I have a real excuse for getting rid of things.

Letting go can be really hard but one of the things I keep hearing at these Buddhist meditations is that it's the clinging that causes the suffering. I find this to be true in my own experience so it's interesting to experiment with what happens when you let go of stuff for starters.

I'll clear out some trash and clutter from my room and then move on to bigger things such as the boxes of "mystery junk" under the bed and in the closet. As I go through the bits and pieces I'll try to be mindful of what I'm feeling or experiencing.

Today my practice is a cupcake/cleaning meditation.

Speaking of attachments, what's with people spending tons of money on engagement rings??? This is kind of like the baby thing from the last post. I just really want to hear your thoughts.

Sometimes I feel like we just continue to accept things because "that's just the way things are".

I hate this.

Oh, and another thing, I might be showing some paintings in the near future.
More on that later...


A. Wolfe said...

i see a lot of large engagement rings, last week she had TWO ceremony rings (the groom wasn't sure why). but going from your whole thought; when i had my own moments of hating money, the system, and "stuff" my mom would tell me that while wealth doesn't bring happiness, it allows one the time and opportunities to find what they really want to do. most of us get confused along way tho, or too scared. as for the big rings? i still don't get it, something about showing your commitment, but in a really fucked up way if you ask me. and don't get me wrong, if there's anybody that would go live without any material possessions, i would. i'll be ok mama. good stuf.

krista said...

i don't get it. the engagement ring thing. i really don't. then again, i don't really understand marriage. as a concept, yes. as a tangible reality for me, no. so the ring is just silly.

i tried on my friend's engagement ring once. i felt so disconnected from my own body and realized jewelry was not my thing.

i read somewhere about a woman who wears big fake $20 cubic zirconia rings because she refuses to spend that much on a piece of jewelry she would be terrified of losing. that seemed like the best idea i'd heard in a long long time.